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Sunday, 05 July 2009

  • will you dance with me
    in a rainstorm
    of stars and dreams?

    will you dance
    in the desert at noon
    where the only creature out
    is the moon?

    will you dance,
    will you dance,
    will you dance with me?
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    Will you dance with me

    in a rainstorm under starry skies

    in a deluge of morning lights

    falling at midnight,

    will you dance with me by high

    noon's candle light?


Thursday, 18 June 2009

  • I HATE IT WHEN THIS HAPPENS

    I HATE the moments when things in the back of your head turn out to be important, essential, vital...

    and exactly the opposite of what you want.

    So I've been ignoring this hinting in the back of my head that maybe, just maybe, SERE isn't right. That maybe I should look into something else. Something like...being a pastor.

    So I've ignored it. Until the other day, I saw something about being an AF Chaplain. And I clicked on it. And looked around. And wrote down some info, and called some people.

    and today, I got some calls back. and learned what I have to do to become a Chaplain. And the same little feeling I got about Kenya, and Winter Retreat, and everything relating to church I should do but don't wanna do, it showed up.

    and I told mom about this, and apparently her friend Granny Bennett had just mentioned how I should be an AF Chaplain. >.>

    crazy co-inky-dink, huh?

    then I prayed about it. And made some more calls. And I'm getting the
    "yep you need to do this" feeling I recognize and hate.
    and I'm ticked.
    because I DO NOT WANT TO BE A MECHANIC
    but in order to get the masters in theology or divinity, I need to do mechanics (more time to study).
    and this means no art school
    or SERE
    or learning Arabic.

    ...
    I hate it when this happens.
    and I know from experience it's easier to just DO THE DARN THING I don't wanna do than to fight it. Safer, too.

    grrrrrrrr.

Wednesday, 17 June 2009

  • "It teaches you to be proud and unbending in honest defeat, but humble and gentle in success; not to substitute words for action, not to seek the path of comfort, but to face the stress and spur of difficulty and challenge; to learn to stand up in the storm, but to have compassion for those who fall; to master yourself before you seek to master others; to have a heart that is clean, and a goal that is high."

    -Gen. Douglas MacArthur



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